I am having a blue day today. They still come around from time to time even though for the most part I feel so much better emotionally and mentally now. You know the type, these are the days when everything feels too hard (even breathing), and everything seems to make you feel on the edge of tears.
Nightmares, pain, nightsweats, pain, stress, pain, heart issues, pain, more hospital visits booked in, pain, waiting to see a neurologist, pain, broken tooth, more pain, and other life stuff – I’m just generally feeling a bit overwhelmed on occasion. Mostly I’m able to put it to the side and keep going, after all, worrying and being miserable about it doesn’t solve the issues anyway – but today I woke up feeling sad and haven’t been able to shake it off yet.
There are other people who have so many more problems than I do, but today I just want to wallow a little – allow myself to feel miserable and accept that it is not an emotion I need to be guilty about.
So here I am, I’m throwing a pity party for one! Woe to me!