Today is a special day for my husband and me. Today we have been married for 16 years, sixteen beautiful years that have been full of love and joy, and yes, a lot of pain.
The first time I remember meeting Steve, I was 15 and we were at a large group dinner arranged by a mutual acquaintance. He and I had been seated at the same table, and I was drawn to the way he joked easily with those around him, he was naturally warm and kind. I liked him right away, but he barely glanced at the geeky 15 year old seated across from him.
Fast forward two and a bit years and he noticed me, or rather, I made sure he noticed me. I was still drawn to him and his warmth and kindness. I’d watched him at our Christian Meetings for two years, and we were even in the same bible study group together. We bonded over a shared love of pizza one evening after the bible study was finished, and before long we had a very tentative first date.
The rest was history as the saying goes – we fell in love quickly and were married after just 9 months, shortly after I turned 18, he was 23. In that time we have rarely spent a night apart, and fought less than I could count on one hand. He has stood by my side through thick and thin, through a lot of thick and thin. I have truly been blessed with an outstanding husband who is my absolute best friend on this earth. Without his love and support, there is no way that I would be alive today.
Many times I’ve questioned if God loves me, I have often felt abandoned and lost in this world. But when I look at my husband, and at my children, I realize something special. God provided me with them, he blessed me greatly with a husband who could withstand the storm of my past, the depression and anxiety that comes with it, and the trauma that I live through when the bad dreams and flashbacks bring the past back to life.
God blessed me with a husband who loves me with a fierceness and warmth that can ease the chill of the coldest periods. Steve has been a strong and loving gentleman who has been my advocate and held my hand when I could barely stand. Someone who has spent hours and hours at various hospitals over the years and attended hundreds of doctors’ visits, and even helped me bathe when I’ve been too unwell (either mentally or physically) to do it for myself.
God never left me. He provided me with someone who could love me so deeply that I would never be truly alone, and He blessed our marriage so that we could be happy no matter what problems have come our way.
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 Two are better than one because they have a good reward for their hard work. For if one of them falls, the other can help his partner up. But what will happen to the one who falls with no one to help him up? Moreover, if two lie down together, they will stay warm, but how can just one keep warm? And someone may overpower one alone, but two together can take a stand against him. And a threefold cord cannot quickly be torn apart.