A lot of people are talking about their plans for 2017, it seems that most of us believe that a new year gives us a fresh start, and in many ways I guess it does. We all need a reason to try and start over, to set goals for ourselves, and to look forward for a better future.
For me, my goal is simple and much the same as all the years previous to this one. My goal is to survive. I want to stand in front of the mirror on the 1st of January 2018 and say “You made it, another year has been and gone and here you are!”. To many people it would seem like a ridiculous goal, maybe even a depressing one, but for those of us who struggle with mental illness, it is a high reaching goal to set for ourselves.
But this year I do feel more hopeful that instead of just surviving, I may even live! There is a huge difference between the two, surviving is not living, it is merely existing, living is to enjoy the existence you are experiencing. I want to live, I want to enjoy my life, my husband, my children, my friends. I want to heal, to move forward, to smile freely and often. I hope to thrive and grow, to recover from this darkness and mist that has enfolded me for so very long.
The most important thing with making resolutions is to make them reasonable, reachable. So instead of wishing to lose weight, or save money, my wish is to spend the next year pursuing the experience of recovery. There will certainly be ups that are followed by downs, I know it won’t be easy, in fact, this year is going to bring with it “Trauma Recovery” which I know will be painful and hard, but I am ready. I hope to be able to roll with the punches and have faith that things will work out in the end, to accept the things I can not change, and to move forward anyway.
For anyone who may read this, I hope you have set kind goals for yourself. I hope you experience joy and love and are encouraged this year. Please take time to celebrate the things you have achieved for yourself, even if they aren’t as you envisioned. Give yourself a pat on the back for surviving 2016, and for having the chance to do the same in 2017.