SOMETIMES ACHIEVEMENT FEELS LIKE FAILURE

It is my anniversary today. Today marks 100 days since I last self harmed, it is a milestone that a few months ago I couldn’t have imagined having. 100 days with no cuts or burns, 100 days of better coping skills for my emotions, 100 days of success. It should be something to celebrate. But…

WHAT TO SAY IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY

It can be hard to know what to say to someone when they confide in you about their mental health problems – even as someone who lives with my own issues I sometimes need to pull myself up from saying something that could be hurtful instead of helpful. I hope it would be obvious to…

FEELING POISONED BY MY SENSE OF HONOR

Honor. Noun: The quality of knowing and doing what is morally right. Synonyms: Integrity, honesty, uprightness, ethics, principles, noble, virtue, goodness, decency, fairness, justice, faithfulness. Most living creatures have some sense of honor, a personal pride of doing what is right and fair and just. I have it, you (most likely) have it, but my…

I JUST WANT TO STAY HOME AND HIDE AWAY

People laugh and think I’m joking when I smile and confess that if it weren’t for my bevy of doctors appointments and Christian worship, that I would happily never leave the house. Sometimes they will hear the ring of truth and set about trying to convince me that I am wrong, afterall, I’m a friendly…

HOW AUTUMN HELPS ME HEAL WITH PTSD

I love all the seasons, but it is the colours of Autumn that make me love it so. Here in Australia we are well into Autumn – nature is becoming vibrant, filled with bold hues of red, orange and yellow, right before the starkness of Winter covers over what is left with its blankets of…

10 WAYS TO BETTER MENTAL HEALTH

They say that when life hands you lemons, cut them into wedges and have tequila shots. It is all about how you look at a situation that will determine how you react to it – while it isn’t always easy to reframe things in a positive light if you are struggling with depression or anxiety,…

AN HOUR IN THE MIND OF A TRIGGERED GERMAPHOBE

Hello, I am Kat, and I am a germaphobe. I am terrified of breathing in public areas, shopping trolleys, public toilets, doors that pull instead of push, taps that turn, eating out, utensils on counter tops, food on display, childrens play areas, toys and magazines in waiting rooms – especially doctors waiting rooms, sharing drinks,…

I AM LEARNING TO BREATHE AGAIN

Breathe. In, fill up my belly like a balloon – two, three, four. Hold. Out, pull my belly button to my spine – two, three, four, five Hold. Repeat. Breathing – we are born with the ability to do it, in fact it is one of those automatic functions of the body.  It is one…

HOW TO OFFER SUPPORT DURING A DEPRESSIVE CRISIS

It can be frightening to watch a friend sink into a depressive crisis, especially if they have been going along well for a while. Some may consider that their latest downward spiral is a need for attention, or because they aren’t taking care of themselves, others may suggest they know exactly what they are feeling,…

WHEN ANXIETY COMES TO STAY

It has been a while but my old friend, Anxiety, has come to stay again. Oh yes, she has come for a visit every now and again but normally only fleetingly – it has been quite some time since she arrived with her bags packed and demanded room and board. I wish she would leave,…

EXPLAINING WHY I SAY THAT “SUICIDE” IS SELFISH

Suicide is selfish! There, I said it! But before getting angry with me, please allow me to explain. 24 years ago, suicide took the life of my dear brother. He was 21 years old, by all accounts he was in the prime of his life. He had the biggest smile, it was beautiful and cheeky….

FOCUSING ON OTHERS WHEN I AM ANXIOUS HELPS ME TOO

Have you ever wondered what your purpose in life is, have you considered what the gift is that you have been given in this life? I’ve spent quite a bit of time recently pondering what mine is, it has been hard for me to figure out what I was put on this earth to be…